Missing Yang

Oh my gosh…I am going insane here. I miss him so much right now that I am simply numb. I’m sitting here trying to remember what life was like before Yang. Because now, he is the last thing I think of before I fall asleep and the first thing on my mind when I wake. How did I go for so many years without him? The only answer that I can come up with is that I didn’t know what I was missing. I didn’t know I could feel this much. I didn’t know that two people could connect this deeply. Never in my life have I missed someone to the point that it caused a physical reaction as it does with Yang. Right now, my mind is numb because it has accepted the fact that I still have quite a bit of time to go (a day and a half…basically an eternity) before I am with him again, but my body is aching and tingling all over. At this point, I’m waiting for exhaustion to set in before going to bed; knowing that if I go to bed right now the squirming will be unbearable. I really need to touch him right now.