I’m going crazy here…

For the record…the Blue Moons did not affect Yang’s recall in any way. It was definitely a mutual vow to “connect” in every possible way. And right now, I miss him with every ounce of my being. There are times when I can’t be with him that every muscle in my body aches. Now is one of those times. At this moment, all I can think about is crawling all over him, kissing him, touching him, tasting him and loving him in so many ways. And, when he touches me and when he enters me, its not just sex; it’s a connection that feeds my soul. Sometimes, just looking at him is like making love. There is such an intimacy between us that words aren’t always necessary. Yet, there’s no awkwardness in the silence. I get lost in his stare, my mind races and if feels as though he hears me. There’s a silent communication that is hard to describe and definitely something that I’ve never experienced before. Yang is very cool and controlled. I would say that 99.9% of the people he comes into contact with have no idea what he is really like or what he is thinking at any given moment. However, I am becoming keenly aware of the small telltale signs that tell me what he is thinking about or at least the subject matter. So, its really cool when the room is full of very serious people, talking about very serious things and I can look at him and know that he has a completely different topic on his mind (me). I’m not nearly as complicated. It’s a pretty sure thing that no matter what time of day it is or where I am and regardless of what I should be doing, Yang is never far from the forefront of my thoughts. I misshim so much right now!!